is prepping for the show! I hate when Jeff is off! Errr! ROCK AUTISM TONIGHT @ TINKS & NIGHTCAPS! Come support a great cause and have fun doing it! xo

I never call out, but yesterday, I didn’t have a choice. I’ll spare the details and let’s just say … i’m feeling MUCH better!

The crazy dreams keep coming. I think i’m going to have to start figuring out what these dreams mean because there’s something wacky going on in my subconscious…

Last night I had a dream that I was walking around the mall barefoot. I apparently left my shoes at the door (like some people make you do when you walk into their home) and walked around EXPRESS with no shoes on. Now, it’d be one thing if I had recently visited a home that practices the whole take your shoes off thing, but I haven’t … in a LONG time actually. So whatever, I leave my shoes at the entrance, walk around EXPRESS, and the chicks that work there just stare my bare little feet. I bought jeans and lip gloss (Express doesn’t even have lip gloss) and I left. Then I went looking for my mom.

… for most people that would be totally normal, but a.) my mom lives 6 hours away and b.) she HATES the mall … the would rather order things online and wait a week than step foot into a mall.

Who knows … I find her … she asks why my feet are bare … and at that point I got pissed that so many people were making a big deal out of it. Weird. We went to leave … and we were LOCKED IN. The doors were locked and I couldn’t find another exit… BUT NO ONE PANICKED. We just sat on a bench. If that EVER happened to me, let alone my mom, we’d be SCREAMING, breaking things, and most certainly in a panic.

Anyone wanna take a stab at all of that? So strange.

Happy Hump Day!!!

The first thing I do in the morning is check my cell. I read new texts and for some reason and I double check my dialed/received calls. I guess I do it to remind myself  if I talked to someone right before I went to bed and forgot. It’s just my morning ritual. This morning I saw that I made a call at 1:58am to a guy. UGHHHHHHHHHHHH! Why do I do this? I’ve been known to SLEEP DIAL in the past, but I thought I was over that!!! The call only lasted 16 seconds which means he either answered and I mumbled some sort of stupidness while asleep … OR … it went to voicemail and I snored into it. Not only is it a DANGEROUS thing to talk in your sleep, but now cell phones make it even scarier. Blah. I don’t even WANT to know what I said. It couldn’t have been anything TOO bad because I don’t recall having any kind of crazy dreams or falling alseep thinking about anything too … umm … bad.  Whatever.

Ok so more important things … Saturday was my audition for The Real World. Wow, what an experience. I drove to NYC Saturday morning and found the hotel where it was being held right away. Right when I walked in I saw a group of young girls sitting in the lobby. None of them were talking to eachother – at all. Of course … here I come … Miss Conversation Starter. I practically interviewed these poor girls and lived up to my reputation of being “too much” when you first meet me. They were nice girls … all very pretty … one of them the typical “party girl” the other was sweet and cute. After a little wait, a Lindsay Lohan look a-like who worked with the casting people brought us up to conference room. We went in in groups of 8-10 and for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE … I FELT OLD. I was the old one. 23 being old is scary. 20-freakin-3 and i’m the oldie. WOW. Most of the ECCENTRIC guys and girls were 19 and 20 and still living at home … still in college … unsure of what they wanted to do with their life … and quiet. I of course was the loud one of the group. You pretty much have 20 minutes to stand out in a group of 10 while still being yourself. I was me. I was loud. I was assertive. I was real. I wonder if that will be enough to get a call back?

 

We’ll see …

 

Eeeeeeee … I’m still hung up on the fact that I  was the old one. I’ve always been the youngin of every group. All throughout school I was the youngest. I was a year ahead of everyone. I graduated college early. I guess I matured along with them all because at these auditions … I was like … too mature compaired to the rest of these kids. Such a strange feeling. It went from being a good thing … young and mature … to being a seemingly bad thing. Time will tell!

I’m tired of drinking!!! This weekend did me IN, but I sort of feel obligated to take part in the festivities today, too!  I know, I know … my problems are huge, huh?! lol

It’s hard to believe we’re already 3 months into 2009. Time really does fly. I laugh when people preach like “life is too short,” but they’re friggin right. Live it up, drink it down.

I actually have some pretty awesome things going on and soooooo much to look forward to this weekend. I got contacted by MTV yesterday to come and meet with casting directors for THE REAL WORLD. Ahhhh I can’t even believe they contacted me! It’s been something I’ve always WANTED to do, but never really thought I could make happen. A shot in the dark, I saw that they were casting, followed the directions, sent in a bio, some pics, videos, all of that good stuff … and they actually scheduled me to come in and meet with them!!! How freakin awesome!?

Last night I started filling out the STACK of papers they sent and  holy … they ask you some personal, deep questions. I guess they want to get into your mind, but wow, it totally made me reflect on A LOT. I was completely honest and gave it my all. I can only imagine the things we’re going to talk about on Saturday. Oh yeah, Saturday is my audition. Eeek. What the heck am I going to wear? I’m going to video blog the whole thing … i’ll post it here on Sunday. Should be an interesting experience. Ahhhhh!

What a weekend. It was a fabulous weekend, well, what I remember of it was…
The Scranton parade totally lived up to the hype. Drinking & dancing at 10am never SOUNDS like a good idea, but it certainly was. SUCH a good time! All of my friends who live in other states don’t get it – I didn’t really get it before I experienced it either. The city shuts down to party. People are drunk at 9am. The streets are covered with people adorned in green and covered in beads. IN THE MORNING. So fabulous. I kind of with St. Patty’s Day came more than once a year…

I wore a green bra too … just incase you were wondering.

Saturday night I went to Hoboken to visit my best friend from college. God I love her.  We sang, and danced, and drank … had a little college reunion with her college love … it was an amazing night … that soon turned into morning where I had to drive back to WB for THAT parade.  We actually went to go see my favvvvvvv cover band – Go Go Gadjet – They were playing in Hoboken at Whiskey Bar and she got up to sing with them. Kate is amazing. She rocked out. It was a great night that ended with my clutch and wallet WREAKING of tequila. Eww.

 

I had NO intention of drinking on a Sunday … but somehow I ended up out until 2 in the morning. LOL – I’m starting to understand the whole “one thing lead to another and…”

I could have totally used a Lifetime Movie Marathon before MONDAY smacked me in the face, but whatever. Ahh I met tons of awesome need people this weekend too … and more lame ass pick up lines. God I love cocky guys, but really? How hard is it to not be a tool? It’s not hard. Be yourself.  It’s like out of control. I actually witnessed a guy walking up to my friend and saying “Hey, let’s go out this week, I’ll even let you buy me dinner” … WHAT? Last week I blogged about 2 DIFFERENT guys saying the SAME EXACT THING TO ME. Where are they learning this crap? It’s ALMOST as bad at the UNINSPIRED compliments like “You have a beautiful eyes.” Oh really, WHAT COLOR ARE THEY? Yep, they NEVER know. It’s hysterical … and sad.

Something else on the obnoxious side … speaking in the third person and giving yourself a nickname …  (There’s your shout out, “Beef”)

 

The party continues tomorrow. We’re LIVE from The Banshee in Scranton from 3-7. Stop by … there ain’t no party like a Scranton party baby!

Monday night was Nickelback, Seether, and Saving Abel in Philly. 3 of my favorite bands – in one sold out arena … ahhhhhhhh. I definitely get it from my mom. I live for concerts. There is just something so amazing about seeing a band perform live. The lights, the loud music, the talent, the screaming, the dancing, the energy, the pyrotechnics, the vibe. Ah, and now … in the year 2009 … the amazing way everyone holds up their cell phone instead of a lighter to light up the entire arena. It’s magical. The show kicked ass and my friend Meghan drove in from Long Island to come with. Whenever she and I get together – it’s always an adventure. We ended up sweet talking our way through the parking fees, into VIP parking, and into a club box. Rockin night.

And Nickelback just announced they are coming to MONTAGE this summer with Hinder, Papa Roach, and Saving Abel. Life is good!

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I LOVE that he takes the time to do video blogs and post them. Check this out – an inside look at his whole song writing and recording process. His music hits me hardest on a rainy day … it’s good reflecting music that makes you dig deep and get in tune with your emotions. How awesome is he?! AND I’m LOVING this song he’s working on!
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Oh boy. Where do I start? I had a pretty eventful weekend … random to say the least. The weather was fabulous and I think it put everyone in a really good mood. A GOING OUT mood too, which is always a good thing! When it’s cold out, it’s soooo hard to get people to go out on the weekends. My friends turn into lame ass couch potato kind of people … but Saturday night … EVERYONE made it out!  I’m thinking the awesome weather also supercharged guys with extra confidence … and i’m not sure where these guys are learning their PICK UP TACTICS … but they are all apparently attending the same school …

Within 3 days of eachother, 2 very different guys who do not know eachother and hardly know me, asked me out using the SAME EXACT PICK UP LINE.  Both times it was something along the lines of … “I can’t believe you’re single … I really think we should purposely run eachother more often … maybe we could do dinner this week something? I’ll even LET YOU PAY!”

 

… lol … seemingly SARCASTIC, right? I had to laugh out loud. 2 guys, same line? Where are they learning this?! Someone, somewhere taught them to say that because it’s just SO forward and kind of rude, that it’s actually hysterical and makes you want to know more about the person. It’s not just some guy trying to people please and win you over by flaunting his cash in front of you …  but really … we’ve resorted to making men THINK that we want to be challenged like that?

It was funny … you have to laugh when someone says that … it’s the reaction they are looking for … I think?! I didn’t take either up on their offer. I guess i’m still a suck for a gentleman… although I’m thinking both of them JUST SAID IT to get a reaction out of me since someone, somewhere, taught them that THAT was the art of the pick up and winning over a woman. God, this game is really confusing and honestly … I don’t want to play. I like to keep things simple. I really love being single… but i’m also a sucker for gentleman … well, a gentleman covered in tattoos

Whatever.

By the way … I discovered a FABULOUS new energy drink. I’m a sucker for SUGAR FREE ENERGY drinks, but I HATE when they taste like METAL … you know what I’m talking about … WELL … VEGAS FUEL – new energy drink … amazing .. it even comes in SUGAR FREE .. only 5 calories! It’s like tropical punch … ooooh I can’t wait to try it with vodka this weekend!  Try it if you see it out … I’m totally hooked!

American Idol sent me on an emotional rollercoaster last night. I was seriously so sad for Anoop and then SO excited for him that they made it a TOP 13 that I was actually crying tears of joy. I am so happy for him. The poor thing hid his face in his hands and was totally in shock, crying, ahhh … AI is some GREAT TV this season!

I digress …

TGIF! I’ve been really dragging all week. I think it felt like an extra long week because Jeff was off Monday and Tuesday and it’s totally weird not having him around for part of the week. All of my favorite bands are at all of my favorite bars and clubs tonight, but to be totally honest … I really want to stop at Blockbuster on the way home, get some chick flicks, and chill in tonight. What is wrong with me!? I’m 23. Shouldn’t I still want to party every Friday night? I guess I can just save a super cute outfit for Saturday night @ The Woodlands … yeah … that sounds like a plan.

Speaking of super cute outfits. I broke YET ANOTHER HAIR STRAIGHTENER!!! I think I go through like 5 a year – it’s insane. So everyone has pretty much gotten used to seeing me with my hair wavy by now. HAIR APPOINTMENT TOMORROW!! Yay – I think i’m going to go a little lighter … nice weather … blonder hair … it goes hand in hand.

I had all intentions of meeting Jeff out for a drink last night. I got home, made a lean cuisine, and watched American Idol. I just couldn’t find the energy, motivation, or desire to go out. My head felt heavy, pillows and blankets were seriously CALLING for me, and there was a new episode of The Real World on. How could I possibly part from the couch!?

So I didn’t. I think Jeff was disappointed because I insisted I would come out for a drink or two … but it’s a Wednesday? Ya can’t kill a girl for feeling lazy and tired on a weeknight!

Everyone is sick. I just did a lap around the building saying my hello’s and goodmorning’s and everybody’s complaining of some sort of sickness. My head just still feels heavy. That’s all. LOL – what a symptom.

So … Christine’s baby shower is in a few weeks! I’m so excited to see her! We haven’t physically seen eachother since not last summer, but the one before. UGH. When you’re in highschool, you don’t really think about the fact that you and your friends will probably be living hundreds of miles apart in just a few years. AND here we are. Boston, PA, New Orleans, NY, LA, all over … thank god for Facebook! I’m excited about her shower, but it’s so hard to get in touch with her friend from college who is putting it together. I write her and it takes her an entire week to get back to me!

Here I am, compulsive emailer. You send me an email, you’ve got a reply in 30 seconds.